Today I woke up with such a heavy spirit. I am a true believer in the power of spiritual warfare. Today begins the biggest Hindu festival here– it’s a month long festival called Dosai. It is celebrated throughout nepal where they celebrate when one of their good gods supposably triumphed over evil. They celebrate this by returning to their villages and sacrificing goats. I was overwhelemed by the sense of darkness as I woke up this morning. There is often a heavy feel here.. but this morning I could tell that Satan is lovng all the worship that he is getting from these people without hope. It is heartbreaking. So I was feeling “weak and heavy laden”. But then in my worship time/quiet time with Jesus a song by Casting Crowns came on. I just have to share the lyrics of this song and how the Lord loved on me through it.
If you ask me to leap Out of my boat on the crashing waves
If You ask me to go Preach to the lost world that Jesus saves
I’ll go, but I cannot go alone
Cause I know I’m nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strongMakes me strongCause when I’m weak, You make me strong
When I’m blind, You shine Your light on meCause I’ll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don’t need me
How amazing to find that you want me
So I’ll stand on Your truth
, and I’ll fight with Your strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
If You ask me to run And carry Your light into foreign land
If You ask me to fight Deliver Your people from Satan’s hand
To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a savior
To feel with Your heartAnd to think with Your mind
I’d give my last breath for Your glory
Glory as I like to say. This ministered to me so much. And then I got to talk to my sis on the phone. I love the gifts of the Lord. I am learning to appreciate the big things and the small things. God’s grace is so amazing. Until HE brings the victory, by the power of Christ in me.. he’s ask me to run and carry his light into a foreign land….To reach out His hand, to love with the love of a savior– to feel with his heart, and think with his mind.. to give my last breath for his glory!
Some days are hard.. other days are harder– but my GOD is soo good. He brings laugher in the midst of sorrow– dancing in the midst of spiritual batteling.. joy in lonliness– peace in the midst of fear.. He is all I NEED ..sabba chincha (all I need). He gives me strength when I want to give up. He gives an encouraging word– a hand when I need to hold– HE gives a rock on which to stand!! I love my Jesus.
So.. the rest of my day was incredible. I had an awesome language lesson.. glory to God. I love it. I am finished with my first lesson book and start book two. And I got a package (i love love you heather sneed.. it came at the perfect timing– coffee and music.. i’ve been jamming all day)…. The best part of my day was whe me and my friend sita got together for our first time of discipleship. We are going to be going through 1 Corinthians three days a week together.. the amazing part (and at times crazy part) is we are doing it all in nepalee. So it’s not a case where I am imparting great wisdom to her.. in fact.. it is humbling because she does much of the teaching to me.. but i love it. I love listening to 1 corinthians through her eyes.. and i love that I can understand it by the grace of God.. and i love it that i can sortof talk with her back. It’s such a blessing. She’s such a blessing.. So the rest of my day became amazing. God is soo good.
ok.. sorry this post is annoyingly long– sometimes i just get preachy. I want to be like beth moore you know. Oh yeah– and the picture was taken today of me and my roomie and my dog under our sort of rose bush in our yard.