I hope and pray you had a fabulous weekend!!
This weekend was my sister and her hubby’s 6 year wedding anniversary. I can’t believe it has been six years. It feels like just yesterday. That night before the wedding night when I was trying to be soo happy for my twin sister, rejoice with her. All us bridesmaids (well of course when she share a womb with a girl you get to be the maid of honor.. so all the bridesmaids plus me, the maid of honor!) .. we were all spending the night at this fabulous bed and breakfast. I so wanted it to be the best slumber party night ever. .. but my heart was breaking it felt like in two. See my sister was my BEST friend. my twin.. my understands everything I am thinking and I don’t even have to say a word. And I was about to lose her. She was gaining a new best friend. and I was left .. with.. well nothing. Still single, still passed by. So I felt at that moment! The wedding day was INCREDIBLE. She was the most radiant bride I have ever seen. They shared their first kiss ever at the altar. They took communion together (Haha.. and I was in charge of getting the pita bread and I accidentally picked moldy bread.. she got it stuck in her teeth.. she still reminds me of that!) The worship at their wedding=awesome. It was beautiful. There she was… picked and chosen. I stood beside her feeling unchosen and looked away from. Where was my prince ready to whisk away His princess… and how would I deal with losing my best friend.
They left for their honeymoon, I left to mourn and feel alone. Then things changed in an instant.
My sisters new of one day husband’s father was killed in a car accident, His mother and aunt injured badly. The world stopped in that moment. The new bride and new husband returned not in joy, but to mourn. And I stopped mourning for myself and mourning with them.
Six years later.. I realize that was one of the BEST days of my life. I got an incredible brother out of the deal.. and later one precious precious biological nephew and another foster nephew! and I was not looked over and unseen. Jesus walked down the aisle with me that day.. and He does everyday. I am still single– but instead of feeling unseen and looked over– I feel romanced and loved by the King of Kings. I praise Jesus He has set me free from trying to figure out what was wrong with me, why I was looked over by guys– and has shown me what HE sees right in Me. HE LOVES ME.. He has declared me His. And I AM his radiant bride. He loves you. He has declared you His. And you are His radiant bride.
This Saturday night on their anniversary 6 years later I took communion
nope.. it wasn’t my wedding night or wedding day
I was just at an event for an emmaus retreat
and I got to take communion
As they handed me the bread
and said Take this in remembrance of me
and the cup and said
this is the blood of Jesus
shed for you
I am communining with Jesus as HIS bride.
Now.. to link up with Ann Vonskamp’s blog and her Monday thankfulness here’s more things I am thankful for
11. playing with my nephews on friday night.. no naps and a late bedtime for them because I am aunt nenn and I can 12. roommate making me iced coffee 13. fun packages in the mail
14. laughter till you cry
15. My precious pastor and his wife.. stayed at their house chatting last night until about 11:00 just because.. they are such a blessing
16. the joy of taking communion
17. Redemption of circumstances
18. Being prayed over by friends– wow.. had an amazing experience saturday where some incredible friends prayed the heavens down for me
20. A soon to be clean room
How about you?
How was your weekend?