I have soo many words I could share with you right now.
I had the joy of ringing in 2013 with some dear friends having just literally landed in Atlanta airport from Miami by way of Haiti. We had been there for a very blessed week..
We were in the baggage claim doing that whole ackward waiting for your luggage, not wanting to push around people but also not wanting to take people out when you grab the bag and then realized you picked up someone else’s suitcase that had the same polka dotted ribbon and try to discretely put it back on the luggage belt!! (and really our luggage stunk more then anyone else on that luggage thingie).
We were there at 11:55.. we had left Haiti that day at 5:30ish… here we were.. back in america.. and it turned midnight.
A New year.
Someone said a quiet happy new year.
It was a quiet turning into the new year.. but inside my heart didn’t feel quiet. Inside I was still processing.
Processing the amazing mixture of joy and brokenheartedness that comes with serving the Lord.
The joy of being around 70 precious Haitian children who I have watched grow up over the past 3 years.
The pain of being around 70 precious Haitian children who are oprhanged, in poverty, and thinking of all I have.
The joy of holding their hands
The pain of holding their hearts
The joy of playing– laughing– realizing they have MORE in so many ways.
The joy of washing clothes with a haitian lady in a bucket outside for hours.
Her not speaking my language– me not speaking hers.. but the language of the love of Jesus and His heart binding our hearts together.
The joy of singing how Great is our God in French in a church full.. of those who compared to the “american dream” seemingly have little but really have hearts full of ALOT more faith and ALOT more trust in our GOD.
The joy of snuggling one in my lap.. or 4. or 5.. or all 70 if I could
The pain of knowing they have not been snuggled much.
What a blessing to serve our savior. … because really I did not serve at all.. He served me….
My word for 2013 God has given me.. NEW
I am praying for NEW things..
New revelation from the Lord..
bathing in God’s NEW mercies..
The old gone..
The New come..
I am excited about dreaming God sized DREAMS for 2013.. (and thankful for the opportunity to be on the God sized dream team)
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So as I am praying about my Godsized dreams for this year–
I want to keep what was going on in my heart at the stroke of midnight turning 2012 to 2013.
That mixture of joy and brokenness..
A heart broken for the lost, the broken, those in need of an invitation to come alive in Christ.
A heart full of joy has God has found me, put me together, and invited me to come alive!