God has so deeply rocked me to the core with this. That my Jesus is the same.. yesterday.. today. and forever. He does NOT change.. even when my world is shaking. He is my forever rock. He is your forever rock. He is not suprised, caught off guard, forgetful, HE is the same.. yesterday.. today.. forever..
Yesterday He loved me.
Yesterday He loved you.
Today.. He loved me.
Today He loves you
And tomorow.. and forever.
See my world has shaken this week.. shaken so deeply not sure my feet feel the ground yet. But God so lovingly had prepared me for this without even realizing. For the past several weeks He’s been teaching me about His sovereignty.. His goodness in midst of trials. and the biggest theme: That He is in ALL the details of our lives. I have taught some really powerful Bible studies on these things in the past few weeks. What I didn’t know is God was lovingly preparing me for what was the nightmare of my yesterday.. for how He would be with me today– and How He is same tomorow.
Yesterday got a phone call at 10 am. The one you never want to hear. Jenn we called an ambulance. Dad cannot breathe, to weak to move. they are on their way. But God, I am a daddy’s girl. I love my daddy more then words can express, God we cannot go through this again…
heart stopped.. spoon in my oatmeal dropped
Left and immediately went to hospital.
I was two blocks away.. God’s in the details!
Was able to meet the amublance there.. be the first face my Dad saw as they unloaded him from stretcher. That is the worst thing you can see..
them take your dad off into the unknown…
But Jesus was there.. He was the same. He was the same God that I had praised that morning in my quiet time in my coffee when world was stable.. and He was my rock.
In this shaking.. He still rock…
Then waiting. lots and lots of waiting.. then find out there is a huge blood clot in both your dad’s lungs .. docs say very life threatening.. very touch and go.. hours of unknown.
But God knew..
even when top docs don’t.. God is there.. God carries.. God sends His love through body of Christ.
This begin our nightmare/glory story of our God who NEVER let’s go.. never.. ever.. never..
Dad transferred to ICU.. lots of big scary words and diagnosis thrown around.. top notch docs all confused..
God is not confused.
His love has not changed.. for me.. for my dad.. for my mom.. for you..
at 12:28 at nigh tonight t as I cannot sleep becuz just want to pray for Dad.. His love here with me..
In the midst of this nightmare God sending someone to hug your neck, or that certain nurse you know has the spirit of Jesus, or that phone call or that text, or that prayer
That beautiful body of Christ.
In the midst of the nightmare friends bringing coffee, toilet paper (haha.. we were out at my house.. ran out that morning.. wasn’t expecting mom to have to spend night with me that night.. didn’t get home from hospital till midnight.. haha.. that night we had to use coffee filters haha), friends being hands and feet of Jesus
Cause Jesus’s hands never leave me.
And i want to proclaim that.
I proclaimed that kissing my dad goodbye in the ICU these past two nights not knowing what tomorrow holds.
No I am not perfect or put together, i feel deeply and painfully this process
But I can say I am held together
Held by the one who holds the universe in the palm of His hand.
Our tomorrow literally holds some very scary things. A risky bone marrow biopsy on dad in morning– the reasons for that biopsy not good.. a journey that probably will not be an easy one.. just like my dad’s bladder cancer 1 year ago–
but a miracle journey
Cuz our God is greater, my God is stronger..
He holds me, held me
Yesterday.. today, and tomorrow.
We need a miracle. Would you join me in praying that.
But you know what I am deeply seeing .. the greater need.. Jesus… He created it that way. And He is faithful even when the world is shaking.
I don’t know how your world is shaking.. but tonight I am praying in the middle of the night.. in the midst of the greatest uncertainties that you have the gift of knowing one thing that never changes.
Psalms 18:2 the Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my (and my families ) deliverer. He is my shield and stronghold, my salvation
Isaiah 26:3 He will keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on THEE!