Well yesterday I didnt necessarily feel brave to be honest. Morning started out with Toby my persnickity Taurus breaking down at the bank. Breaking down is a semi normal thing for us. Toby was protesting the cold I thought. I had to giggle when the bank guard in his gun and full protective gear helped me start Toby. I mean really— why not make it look more dramatic. I always love a good story.
Then I was about to get on the interstate to drive the 45 minutes to work and I felt the Holy Spirit whisper– Get thou car home. or something like that. So I turned in the direction of home. I knew I was in trouble when the radio died. Then one by one things just STOPPED working. Not ideal in a car.
At the red light of a major intersection Toby died all together. Died… not even a flasher to be seen died.
ugh. In that moment I really didn’t feel brave. I more was feeling these thoughts.
Lord you know the crazy tight ministry budget I live on. If Toby is dead.. um.. what to do? I have a car here .. stuck to by the way Lord. Not sure what to do. I don’t have money for wrecker, fixing ect. God.. remember I work for you right!
Not feeling super brave.. but I decided to try to chose thankfulness in that moment. And ask God to send HELP. He did in the form of two police cars, two pushers, a wrecker and an hour later.. I got home. (and of course don’t forget the armed guard at the bank either)
God knew what I would need that day.
And He knows what I need every moment of every day.
And the thing He is bravely asking me to press in and believe.. is that HE is a God who lavishly takes care of those He loves… and that He lavishly satisfies.
Something I am asking my heart to learn is that God loves me to much to ever let anything else satisfy.
Brave is right now for me pressing into knowing that having a husband who could take care of the car stuff would not be designed to satisfy my soul .
That man’s approval and praise is not designed to satisfy.
That the 4 smores I must admit I ate around the fire last night, not designed to satisfy.
Psalms 63:5 style can satisfy.