I am a dreamer. And I am so glad that God created me to dream. Too dream big. Most of the times that is a HUGE blessing. Sometimes it can be a curse. Those moments when the dream feels so big and I make God small in my mind.
Lately I have been struggling with a concept. I want to believe Big. I want to pray Big Bold prayers because I want Big faith.
But how do I find the balance in believing God to be Big, praying Bold,and yet not missing the small.
I am going to be completely honest here. I love what I do with Coming Alive Ministries. And this year God has blown me away by the ministry doors He has opened for me. And I have had fun.
But a couple of weeks ago, the enemy really wanted to trip me up. The Coming Alive Board of Directors and I had put a great deal of work into our Coming Alive Dessert Banquet/Ministry Celebration. We had sent out tons of invitations and were so excited for that night, which was not only going to celebrate our ministry that year, but be our fundraising for the rest of the year. We set the table, had lots of cute decorations and waited for the people to come. And Waited. And waited.
When only four people came I must admit, I was devastated. Not that I was not appreciative of those four people. But I had an idea in my mind of what success for my Big dream meant.
I forget that God is bigger still. And I believe in that moment, and then that next weekend when we had a very small turnout to our first fall Bloom conference– that God was trying to teach me to celebrate the small because nothing is small when our Big God is doing it!
Do I really believe Proverbs 20:24 A man’s steps are from the Lord.
My steps are from the Lord?
This weekend I had the BLESSING of attending an amazing blogging conference called Allume . God taught me so much and blessed me so much. This was my first time at this conference, but not my first time at a writer/speaker conference. This was so well done. I felt like a princess the whole weekend, especially as I toted around our free swag bag which was PACKED with awesome free books (I left with about 20).
I was learning so much. I was feeling refueled. But I was also feeling small. In a room with bloggers who have BIG numbers, big audiences, have sold BIG numbers of books have had BIG publishers take on their books.. are seeing God do BIG things.
It could be easy to slip into small. I know the enemy wanted nothing more.
But the freeing thing I am learning– I can celebrate small when I slip myself into the Big God is doing.
As I learned so many things that gave way to more BIG ideas I have for Coming Alive Ministries in the coming days , so much information, I asked God to boil it down to one takeaway for me to chew on. And He did in a wonderful session by Melanie Del, who you must visit here.
Her session was so freeing– about how we just need to be.. Us. She came presenting in her pj’s even. And she was her, and I felt free to be me.
And this is what was my transforming moment for the weekend.
Dream Big, work small
My salvation and honor depend on God.
And I am changing that a bit to also remind myself.
Pray Big. Believe Big. Celebrate Small .
So your dreams may be totally different. It may be you are wanting to go upward in your company . You may want to step out and be a stay-at-home mom. You may be anxiously awaiting the man of your dreams. You may want to start a ministry at church or have the boldness to say no to a ministry at church.
Whatever it is today, would you have the courage to dream big, start small. Believe big celebrate the seemingly small.
Don’t forget if you live near TN this weekend or get the crazy gumption to fly into from another state, the Bloom conference is this weekend. God is going to speak! Join us . Click on Bloom Tab on my website for info